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Well I thought this year would be going to be better than the last few . . .
Big Laugh everyone.
My life still sucks - more so than ever. I had the chance of a new job on a short notice. I took it, because - well my job life didn't have any kind of perspective. It started on April 1st, which meant I had to leave some people hanging on pretty short notice. I called off other job interviews, because well I thought I had found a place . . .
Now I'm unemployed again :( Didn't even took me two weeks to get pink slipped and I think the main reason was:
I suck as a person (or something the like) or that I wasn't allowed to make mistakes although it was an apprenticeship.
Now I'll have to try to get together the pieces of my former life and rescue what there is to rescue. I can certainly forget the other jobs I applied for because I told job interviews off with 'I've found someplace else' and I still haven't got any perspective . . .
Not one tiny little shimmer of hope on the love front either (which would at least be a bit of a balance.)
My roomies and friends try to help but honestly . . .
I'm turning 30 this year and I get the feeling, that I'm a total failure, because I only dabble in things never get to be REALLY good in anything and no one pays your bills for being a nice, well educated person who is mediocre in a lot of things :'''(
Spent the whole weekend sulking and began to do the necessary bureaucratic shit today.
I don't even know why I'm writing this because I don't even think that anyone reads this blog (Not that I can blame them with all the infrequent updates :( )
Big Laugh everyone.
My life still sucks - more so than ever. I had the chance of a new job on a short notice. I took it, because - well my job life didn't have any kind of perspective. It started on April 1st, which meant I had to leave some people hanging on pretty short notice. I called off other job interviews, because well I thought I had found a place . . .
Now I'm unemployed again :( Didn't even took me two weeks to get pink slipped and I think the main reason was:
I suck as a person (or something the like) or that I wasn't allowed to make mistakes although it was an apprenticeship.
Now I'll have to try to get together the pieces of my former life and rescue what there is to rescue. I can certainly forget the other jobs I applied for because I told job interviews off with 'I've found someplace else' and I still haven't got any perspective . . .
Not one tiny little shimmer of hope on the love front either (which would at least be a bit of a balance.)
My roomies and friends try to help but honestly . . .
I'm turning 30 this year and I get the feeling, that I'm a total failure, because I only dabble in things never get to be REALLY good in anything and no one pays your bills for being a nice, well educated person who is mediocre in a lot of things :'''(
Spent the whole weekend sulking and began to do the necessary bureaucratic shit today.
I don't even know why I'm writing this because I don't even think that anyone reads this blog (Not that I can blame them with all the infrequent updates :( )
